I think I'm just one of those people, the type that puts there foot in there mouth and wishes they hadn't said that. Makes a mistake, apologizes and makes another, turns left instead of right, Generally misunderstood and often mistaken. Sensitive, unsure and a little impatient. Just the perfect candidate for God to move, show up and show out. In His word He says when you are weak I am strong. Thank You Lord for being my strength. Today I had none. I woke up late after going to bed early. Couldn't process my thoughts and put together an outfit. Disappointed someone or two, got offended, needed a hand, lost something important and expensive, cried too long and was too upset to eat.
I know I will get it together i just wonder what I am ruining in the meantime? If I could only get out of my own head and out of my own way......What does that even really mean?
Most days I'm so confused, pulling from one self help book to the next just to feel bad about feeling bad and not evolving as the book guaranteed I would with proper practice of the principals.
Wanting to speak to someone but there being no one. Jesus.
I pray I'm not being to forward or too miserable. I pray that I'm not being selfish or a complainer. I just really could use you right now. I need to know what's happening to me and what I need to be doing to make it. Am I not trying hard enough , am I not being nice enough, am I not sharing enough? How can I help ?
My son saw me crying today, I thought he was fast asleep. He said he came to check on me. What a major burden for a child, how noble of him.
I guess none of us should expect to have a vacation of a life all the time. Thank you Father for hearing me and allowing me to speak for that someone who didn't have the words to say.
I will continue to praise you. I thank you for every road traveled, your mercy and your loving kindness towards me. I have embraced peace.
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God Bless You